Wow, the last post was almost a year ago!

Happy CNY pandas!




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more of the same
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http://www.femalemag.com.sg/webpromo/bonanza
go to this and fill up particulars of everyone in your family. hahah who knows you might just get lucky!!
it is a giveaway by female magazine. lucky draw manner and each person is entitled to one chance each.
Try to go for those choices which seem damn unpopular.. but all the prizes look damn good


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Go to fill up your email and get a 15bucks NYDC voucher. Then we can all go pig out!
Its good for a drink and a Hawaiian Pasta


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I just realised I posted a really long post. haha
Guess this kinda summarises everything that has been going on this two months for me.
SO if u guys are asking is she my gf.. yah maybe. will she be my gf? i dunno
haha anyway it is really an epic I just wrote. 2588 words. in around an hour. :d haha so
think u have to read it over a few days ...
think about it a few days. and see how u can counsel me.


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How I wish I have the answers. Yet The answers may not be what I like.

SO I went to sleep just now. Flipped in the bed and got up after the darkness induced me to keep thinking. So in fact I did not sleep. What I did was switch off the comp and the lights and then lying in bed for a good 3 minutes before I felt my heart working up again.
It is not a good moment or good week to be thinking about getting answers to my questions. Painful questions. Both of us are busy. Next week perhaps. Or at least this week end.

Ok lets put this into context: I have known and have been close to her for 4 years. Remember I keep asking you guys if 5 years difference is a big gap? Thats because she is five years younger than me. Of course she was in JC when i knew her. Now she is in NTU accountancy year2. Thats why I plucked up my courage to try to make this work. Yet recently got a problem.

I found out that she has been seeing her old friend behind my back. That is she did not tell me she is going out with him or wot. She put his name as Sheryl on her phone. OF course when I found out I was freaking sad. It is like history repeating herself again when I witnessed XY holding hands with another guy at j8.

Of course she has not been holding hands with him or engaging in any obviously romantic stuff with him. She writes on his facebook more often than mine. but my comments are always romantic ones. his is just scribblings. The reason she did not tell me is because she is afriad I would stop her from having a good friend. She said she has been prepared to stop talking to the guy and is going to do so because she is afraid I would find out.

Fact is , many years ago, a guy in class had liked her. SHe doesnt like him and I know that as a fact. Who can resist my charms 4 years ago when I have not decided to put on a fat suit. Girls were falling all over my feet... haha ok not alot.. maybe just 3 . and 3 not very pretty ones. But of course looks are superficial.. hahaha or are looks just super? Anyway he kept asking her out. So finally she agreed to go out with him. I asked her not to but she just wanna get it over and done with.

I agreed. But later when she got home I scolded her the F word. I said what the fuck do you think you are doing ? I fucking dont like it at all.. etc etc. It is poor communication. After all i am just pissed that she couldnt tell that I do not really like it . but chose to let her go out with him coz i wanna be a gentleman. hhaha in the end I just couldnt take it. But hey that time i was just 22 . SO she got scared and know I have a jealousy problem.

So last friday I saw an sms on her phone. It contained the words "kiss until sianz", That immediately caught my attention. I asked her for her phone but she refused and went to say she needs to change, went into her room and deleted the msg. I confronted her and she said it was nothing. Upon further pressing, she said its her st john friend who msged her that coz they were preparing for a camp and have a play a kissing game. She even called her friend benjamin on the phone because she claims ben sent it to her. SHe wanted benjamin to confirm her story. She was taking a gamble because I could have just asked for the phone.

I am a medicine undergrad. I know when someone is lying. So that night i checked out her emails and msn. Discovered a few things which I will mention below. I discovered a guy. Then I confronted her the next day about the msg again. then realised she has been talking to someone for 20 over times and each time over 2 hours. She said it was sheryl and sheryl was having a troubled time with her bf benjamin. I wanted to call and verify the truth when she gave in and told me it is aguy. but there is nothing going on between her and him. In her words: I am not seeing any other guy.

Last month. So let us start with the email. She emailed him before she emailed me. The same email. She ended his with Love, fluffy. The soft toy I bought for her or rather paid for her while she was out with him and Weiying. She ended mine with Love, weiteng, xiaoxiong and fluffy. Xiaoxiong is another soft toy I bought for her.So, is she masquerading her liking for him behind fluffy's name? DOes the order she sent the same email to matters?

Fridays. I would always ask her if she needs me to pick her up from school on fridays. I wonder two fridays ago when she had to stay back for project with friends and declined my invitation. She stayed out till 2.30am until a guy friend sent her back. Did she rejected my invitation for his? I called her and heard a guy's voice. The phone was hung and I was told that the phone was not working. True the phone has not been working well quite often. But Was it deliberate? Has she ever declined my invitation just to go out with him?

She has not been calling me these few weeks or since last month. DOes she call him when she has good news or bad news? When she needed someone to talk to, someone to share her day with, who does she want to call. WHen I checked her phone, there were 20 over calls from him. From his army camp. Most of them are over 1 to 2 hours. and in the wee hours of the day. When we talk on the phone, we do not talk that long. There was even a 4 hour chat. Usually she would want to sleep by 2am or so.

She said she wanted to tell me but was afraid that I would be jealous. She had lied to me for 2 months. Then recently she wanted to stop contacting him or talking on the phone with him because she know I will be unhappy. That is what she told me when I found out and asked her why she lied. She had saved his name as Sheryl on her phone for fear I would see. AM I really that horribly jealous?

There were days when she would go back to her NTU hostel with him coz he stays near her and drives. They have watched a movie together. God,, they have even collected a few prizes which I won for her together. They enjoy supper together and mahjong together. Yah I know she has been trying to tell me of his existence and trying to get me to meet her friends in hope that I will accept him. But that is no longer the main issue here. She told me she will never like him.. or is that what she said? or issit she will always like me? but also like him at the same time?

And of course, he used to like her way back in secondary school. She rejected him. She has always treated him as a good friend and nothing more.

Of course I told her I would accept their friendship. However it is just impossible for me to accept that she cares about him more than me. Somemore I have known her for 4 years plus and we have been really close all the time. She just kinda rekindled their friendship before christmas and they seem to be really close , maybe even soul mates in that period of time.

So am I being selfish if i cling on to her? Why not let her have a go with him and see if she would develop a stronger relationship with him than with me. ROmantically. I have suggested that to her and perhaps we should just do it. Get her to declare herself available to all guys and see if he chases her. I think he still likes her.

During Vday, I was kinda stuck in my gran's wake. Not that I hated it because it is my responsibility as her grandson to be there for her during her last trip. SO he jestingly offered her to join him on vday if she doesnt get a date from me. Yes just joking you know. I know too well about just jokings. So if I had not made time for her on Vday, would she really have gone out with him if he actually asked?I asked her that but she insisted that he is just joking. SO no answer though I suspected that she would have probably gone out with him if I werent free that day. I need an answer to that. A truthful answer. SO if the answer is yes. What does it mean?

Would u settle for someone who loves u 99%? or maybe 80 % in my case. I know she is true to me but what she has done during these few months, does it constitute an emotional betrayal? She said she never considered him romantically at all. She treats him like a sister. Like her best friend Candy. Is she lying to herself?

Well, she said with tears on sat that she would give him up for me. She would give up her best friend candy for me and she would give up her life to save mine if possible. I had asked her to choose between me and him. She has also been telling me we might have a communication problem recently. Perhaps she was mustering courage to tell me about him. She asked me hypothetically what would I do if I see her going out with another guy. She said she would be happy to see me. I told her if she had not told me beforehand I would get very suspicious and angry. However I think as long as she has a good reason I would accept it.

She told me she is very sure she will not have feelings for him and will stay true to me. She says it is because of my inherent distrust and preconceived perception that all guys cannot be trusted and that I only trust myself and not others that I am making such a big fuss out of this. She gets angry and frustrated when i forbade her to be friends with him, saying that why cannot she have good friends? That is a valid point.

So if one day I am busy which might be so often. And we quarrel. Will she turn to him? Will I be rational enough not to suggest we break up because she has done that? So should I just let her go before the hurt become irreparrable?

Of course after so many years of knowing her, this is the first time I have noticed her getting close to a guy. That 4 hours of chatting cannot just all be about me can it? ALl the things done in the last two months between him and her just seem like that intense feeling of love when you first meet someone you like.

Perhaps it is her fear of me being sad that she does not want to try my suggestion? That she declares herself single and let him woo her. WHat should really be the correct way forward now?
Maybe because I am there, thats why they never develop any further? Is it possible that her explanation of treating him like a sister is true? As in true for her and for me. Or is it just a way to cover up the excitement of falling in love. Refusing to acknowledge it because to do so would means being unfaithful to me?

First, for her to declare herself available. He would have to come out and say he likes her if he really does. And I am willing to bet my camera that he does. Am I being silly by allowing such a thing to happen when clearly now I have all the advantages? I think I need to do it because I hate the fact that she thinks of him more than me in a day sometimes. or most of the time. Is that really acceptable? She will take his calls, off my calls when he is around? or is it not true? I need answers to that also.

I need her to inspect her own feelings. And decide that whether she did develop any fondness for him. IS it love? I think it is possible to like and love two persons at the same time. So should I begrudge her for doing so ? So next, should I allow her to continue being friends with him? I really have no wish to do that. It puts me in a very negative light especially with her friends who know about it. Hell the whole world will think I am a jealous bastard.

Lets have two scenarios: first is she really likes to talk to him and shares with him her stuff and msges him and go out with him more than me for the last two months.
In that case, is it fair for me to demand she stop seeing him? Of course I can try to make her happier, make life more exciting for both of us. But the hurt of knowing that she has strayed emotionally will be great. Isnt it damn ironical that I am trying to Replace him? This is the scenario I would hate to face most but I think that might be the case.

Now if she declares herself single... say I ask her to .. just so I can trick him to come out and say he likes her. Of course if he does not like her then all is good. If he does, should I forbide them going out together?

Second scenario: she just occasionally talks to him and went out with him once or twice. She thinks about me more and feels more excited being with me. Then of course I would not even bother to ask her to stay away.

her friends and aunt seem to think I am exerting too much influence on her. She should have the freedom to make friends. But now it may not be that simple anymore. After all, alot of things suggests that this is a deep friendship.. but a friendship that can supercede a relationship.. does that happen? maybe if it does than I will be able to accept it. But i just dont wish to be thought of less frequently than him.

How I wish Aunt Agony or AUnty Barry would help with this dilemma. Uncle Colin and XUeting jiejie may also be good advisors since they have plenty of experience with relationships. I need a paragraph by paragraph analysis... hahaha coz these are the questions bothering me.


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I was trying to win Stomp's disney on ice: princess diaries tickets when I was googling Snow White!
hahah guess what I found about this naughty girl:

Synopsis
Snow White lives in the castle with her father and her stepmother. Prince is her stepmother's lover. Her father dies and her stepmother banishes Snow White. Prince and Snow White meet accidentally and start a love affair. Queen witnesses this affair and commissions a hunter (played by Costinha, a veteran Brazilian comedian) to kill Snow White. Snow White offers herself to the hunter to survive. She then flees to the forest. She is found unconcsious by the Seven Dwarfs and taken to their cottage. Six of the Dwarfs (except Grumpy (Zangado) who is gay) make advances to sleep with Snow White. Queen learning from the mirror that she is still alive and happier, commits suicide by eating a poisonous apple. Prince goes into the forest to find Snow White. To end the conflict, Dwarfs decide to draw lots and Dopey (Dunga) wins. Snow White finds out that Dopey possesses a huge virile member. Next day, Prince arrives at the cottage to take Snow White. She refuses, telling the Prince that Dopey is her lover. Prince takes the tempting Grumpy instead.


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Eh... just curious.. wanna join?

Youth Without Borders is a reality TV contest that challenges youths in physical trials, promotes teamwork, while rewarding and empowering them by giving opportunities to raise awareness and win cash prizes for their cause. The Arena Competitions and Final Showdown will take place in March 2009, and only 18 teams of contending youths will be chosen to prove just how committed they are! *scape Youth Park will be playing host to the Final Showdown, where all other shortlisted teams will be invited back for an opportunity to raise funds and raise public awareness for their causes by setting up stalls at the Finale event.


Each team will comprise of 4 members with 2 additional members as reserves. The team must have a minimum of 2 members/reserves of the opposite gender. All team participants must be Singaporeans or Permanent Residents in Singapore, and between the ages of 17 to 30 in 2009.
Once you’ve got a team together, come up with a Team Name!


This is a positive change that you and your team want to make in your community, or in Singapore, or even in another country! You can also submit a cause that your team is already active in.

Some examples of causes that would be considered are: community involvement projects such as helping needy students and the less fortunate and environmental projects. Raising money to donate to existing welfare funds or institutions or to send your team on a holiday will NOT be considered.

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